Make Love

Make love to my mind & all else will follow.

Downtown L.A.

Los Angeles, California.
Downtown area.
17 floor.
Beautiful

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My DVD Collection

I looove movies almost as much as I love music. I picked up the habit of buying DVDs when I'm out & about. I don't usually pick up the newer DVDs because movies these days suck. I hope to possess 150 movies by the end of the year. I take all donations...lol...(no bootlegs). Just kidding but I will take a DVD that's purchased for me. Between us, I'd rather spend 20$ (club entry fee) on a DVD (5$ - 20$). I'm guaranteed to have more fun.

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My Sunshine

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy

When skies are gray

You'll never know, Dear

How much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

R.A.J.

I used to crush on him when we first met. He was everything I liked in a guy. Not too tall but taller than me. Nice body frame. He wasn't skinny but he wasn't chubby. He was lean & had a little muscle definition. He had big dark brown eyes accompanied by long, gorgeous eyelashes that I get lost in periodically. Aside from his physical attributes, he was outgoing. A very lively spirit and just as witty as me. As time passed he proved to be an awesome friend. I could text or call him and he'd always know the right things to say to calm me down or perk me up. Over the three years we've developed a tight bond. We understand each other and we don't even have to explain. I think it was kind of destined for us to meet, dance, and be friends. I think very highly of my friend. He is young yet wise & he's very ambitious. I hope my future boyfriend is able to cope with him being around. To lose a friend like him would be one of life's greatest loses.

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The Difference

My mother had six children. I of course am the youngest. You may think being the youngest is cool. You think that I get/got whatever I want/wanted. Ok....you may be right. (lol) I am a pretty spoiled person but the age difference with me & my siblings took a toll on me as a kid. I came eight years after the rest of the clan was born. My siblings are no more than four years apart. What sucks is...I never really had a relationship with them until I was 18. Growing up...i was the only one at home from the time I was 6 or 7. Everyone else was grown or living elsewhere. I felt lonely. I still feel that way at times. They have soooo many stories of growing up and the mischief that they go into together. Not fair in so many ways. I was forced to get into trouble alone or with my closest friends. Why the fuck couldn't I have come sooner.? I spent countless days alone. I learned to play by myself. I learned to fend for myself. I didn't talk to my big sisters about my first kiss. My first love. My first time having sex. I damn sure didn't talk to my brothers about it. My friends became my siblings. Gaby & Shamari became the little sisters I never wanted. (lol) I loved them tho. I used to think that I was a mistake. Yeah, sucks for me. The good thing about the age gap was my brothers & sisters spoiled me absolutely rotten. I got whatever I wanted from any of them. I feel that it was only right, don't you.?


When I'm stable enough to have kids my kids will not be too far in age. Four years max.! I think going through what I went through makes me feel in such a way that I wouldn't my own to feel that way. Horrid feeling it is. I know first hand.

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Happy Birthday Stacey Dash

Happy 45th birthday to the ever so lovely Stacey Dash. A ageless beauty. Not to mention she is such a down to earth celebrity. I love her. 

This Morning

I inhale deeply as the crisp, cool air hits my face. Watching the sun creep across the horizon as my Pandora player plays music that soothes my soul. So many thoughts as my body adjusts to the coolness of the nippy climate. It's so beautiful. The distant blend of hues that illuminate the morning sky. I take a seat & let my mind wonder as I stare at the orangish red sky with just a hint of purple & a touch of pink. It looks as if the Heavens were ablaze and the result, the Earth so alluring yet so neglected by many. The multi-colored firmament has a seemingly calming affect on me. As if I am peace with myself. Everything that troubled my mind minutes before seemed to have vanished. I inhale deeply again. I feel harmonious. My mind, body, and soul were both relaxed as I stared into the sky. What a wonderful feeling. To be in such a state of tranquility is one that I wish upon all who are under all sorts of stress. Harboring bad thoughts about whatever burden they are facing in life. No matter how insignificant. We all this sort of relaxation.

 

Quick Writes

I loved & hated my 12th grade English Literature class. I loved it because we read such good stuff and I enjoyed tge assignments. I just hated the teacher. I absolutely adored my English Composition class. My favorite thing were quick writes. The teacher would give us 15 minutes to devise a creative little story about a given subject.


It was one time when me & my bro bro wrote identical paragraphs and hadn't even conversed about the subject. I thought of that because it reminded me of good times. If only we could go back to the good days of quick writes & tardy bells.

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Ursula Is The Name

Yup that's me.!

I watch Cartoons

Hi. My name is Ursula and I'm a 21 year old cartoon watcher. (in Unison: Hi Ursula). Seriously though I love cartoons. Not all of them but I have my handful of favorites that I get lost in. I loooove Phineas & Ferb. That has to be my favorite cartoon right now. I've seen dang near every episode like twice already. I know people who act like they are too "grown" for cartoons. Or that they are too old for cartoons but that's them. I'm such a kid at heart. I like watching the Disney Channel with my 8year old niece & 9 year old nephew. We may pop popcorn & eat junk & watch all sorts of kid friendly movies. That doesn't make me childish. In my opinion it makes my taste more eclectic. I can hold a conversation with a four-year old on what they find interesting as well as a 44 year old.

Some of my favorite cartoons include:
Baby Looney Tunes
Phineas & Ferb
The Smurfs
The Snorks
The Little Mermaid
Scooby Doo
A Pup Named Scooby Doo
Family Guy
The Boondocks

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I don't knock anyone's writings. I just don't agree with them calling themselves poets because they can make a bunch of words rhyme pointlessly. A child could do that. It must have some sort of feeling involved.

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No Competition

How can I compete? An opponent that captivates all of his attention. I don't find it fair that she's allowed to go to the club and have a good time while I'm forced to stay at home. Alone. How am I to feel when you confide in her. Spilling your deepest secrets to her while I pry & pester you for your thoughts and feelings. Jealousy overwhelms me when you run to her when we have a problem. Why not come to me? Why not talk to me instead of that devil in disguise? This relationship for three is something that I never could have fathomed. To save myself from hurt and embarrassment I will bow out gracefully. To an opponent that I will never compete with. Call me weak or timid. Insecure may ooze from your lips that her poisonous juices have stained. I will not lose you to a battle with the bottle. Alcohol you are the victor in this battle of his love.

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Trip To Thrifty's

Butter pecan ice cream on a cone that's what he favored. That's what he got. "What Kind you want, Big Girl?". He'd have to ask her about 5 times between the time they left the house to the time they made it to the service counter at Thrifty's. Every time her response would change. Bouncing on the balls of her tiny little feet, eyes as big as silver dollars, she scanned the freezers. He beamed at his little princess. Smiling at the enormous smile that dressed her pretty little face over tear streaked cheeks. Her smile could brighten the darkest of days. It could warm the coldest of hearts. He promised that he would do anything in his power to make sure she always kept that pretty little smile on her face. Finally, she squealed with delight as she pointed to the chocolate chip ice cream. "In A cup!", she blurted out before the server could ask if she wanted a cup or cone. As always, she batted those long gorgeous eyelashes that he could never say no to. Soon after came her infamous pout. He chuckled and simply said "Aaand?". The innocent little lady pointed to the cookies & cream. Knowing her mother would have a fit for her having two scoop he instructed the young server to place another scoop. "And I want a cone on top. But not a regular cone. This kind." On her tippy toes she reach and pointed to the sugar cones. The man paid the server & watched his little princess smile widely as her handed her her frozen delight. When ever she was sad or mad or needed to talk they'd venture to Thrifty's. She always got a double scoop with a cone & he'd get butter pecan on a cone. It was definitely a daddy-daughter thing.

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Happy New Year

Welcome to 2011. I'm so very late on my first 2011 post. I hope all of my readers enjoyed their holiday season. I enjoyed food, family, friends, and good times. I felt really good that I got so many people gifts. My daddy would have been so very proud of me. I spent my New Year's Eve with friends & brought the new year in with my family. My favorite cousin, my ace, my day one, my heart, turned 21 on the first day of 2011. I was proud that I didn't get wasted. I had a few drinks but I wasn't inebriated. Major New Year's accomplishment for me. I didn't make any of those tacky resolutions that people usually make. I started in October/November. I don't feel the need to disclose them on this post. They are my own personal promises to myself that I've been doing a good job at. There have been a few minor situations 18 days into this year that I've encountered. I won't let them get me off centered though. Hope all of you are sticking to your guns with your resolutions. I wish anyone reading this a blessed & prosperous year. Peace & Love.

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