Foolish Pride

I'm a very prideful person. So as I sit here & cry I think about all my wrongs I've done due to my pride. I disrespected you as a man. Speaking to you as if you were a little bitch & not a grown man. The countless times I've hung up in your face after you asked me time and time again not to. I've mistreated you because I was angry with someone else and you didn't do anything to deserve it. Calling you names out of anger. Being a bitch for no reason. All due to my foolish pride. I know I'm not perfect. Not by a long shot. But I do know I could have done better. Better at trying to trust you. Better at trying to ease the insecuritites lurking deep inside of you. Better to be better for you. My pride wouldn't let me. My pride made me a foolish girl about many things instead of the "grown" person that I claimed to be. By no means am I trying to win you over. I know better to think that you can be so easily persuaded. It's just that after the numb feeling fades the reality sets in. No means do I want you to feel sorry for me. I'm not looking for that. My pride is speaking because like I told you before to hurt you is to hurt myself. That's what I've been doing this entire time. I admit the cause of the problems was me. The reason for 80% of the arguments was me. The reason I was angry was me. I do admit that I love you & care about you & that is definitely something that pride will never take from me.

So to all of you who let your inflated pride get the best of you I am proof that it only hurts yourself.