Confessions of a Broken Hearted GirL Entry #1 - For You Were Not There

Last night i cried myseLf to sLeep because you were not there. i tossed and turn and yearned for you to be by my side. to feeL your touch. to smeLL your scent. thats aLL i needed to soothe me. i thought i heard you in the haLL yet when i jumped up and caLLed out "baby is that you.?" you didn't respond. fore you were not there.

today i waited for you to come home. i sat on the step with my head in my hands untiL you came. 10 minutes, 20 minutes, 30 minutes, an hour and you stiLL hadn't showed up. a deep sigh of disgust. then it cLicked. maybe you were aLready in the house taking a nap. so i knocked. and i knocked. and i knocked. then i caLLed. no answer. i rapped on the door. yeLLing your name and the door never swung open. for you were not there.

another night and another day. another and another. did you go on vacation and didn't teLL me.? oh "maybe your at your moms" i thought aLoud. suddenLy a Light buLb went off. i knew why you were not answering me. why you kept standing me up. why you never came around anymore and why you were not there.

i cried. oh how i cried. in fact, im crying right now. i reaLized that you wiLL never be there when i caLL you anymore. i shouLd stop expecting you from now on. no more thinking that your there because you won't be....physicaLLy. aLL i can ask is that daddy you watch over me.
confessions of a broken hearted girL

Period.!

okay. i h8 wen girLs bLame their fouL ass moods on their freaking menstruaL cycLes. ( for those of yu men tht dnt know...thts their PERi0D) Lik yu fLip out nd say dumb shit to a guy nd then reaLize yu fucked up nd the 1st thing out of yur mouth is "im sorry. im so emotionaL. its bkuz im on my period.!" BiTCH quit Lyin.! yu knew yu fucked around nd sed some crazy shit to a nigga.! yu knew he was gon fuck around nd do some shit or say something tht yu knew yu cuLdnt handLe.! booooy i teLL yu. yu need to quit bLamin tht shit on yur monthLy. yu give niggas a right away to say "yu must be on yo period" wen yu cop an attitude or yu N0T in the mood. 0WN UP T0 BEIN A BITCH S0METIMES.! sheeeeeeesh. its in a womans nature to be bitchy sometimes. jus dnt say tht the bLoody drip is the cause.

Men. yu need to stop sayin tht the reason we mad. N0.!!! sometimes we get tired of yur asses nd we wanna be Left the fuck aLone. i know sometimes i jus wanna be in my own LiL worLd. chiLLin. N0T deaLin w. nobody nd here yu cLusterfucks come ndbother a girL. damn Leave ME BE. it aint nothing personaL...it jus get Lik tht sometimes yu dig me.? the period is N0T the cause of every mood swings. sometimes it be yo weak ass sex game.! or yur ridicuLous habits tht she cnt stand but nvr say nothing abt.! the List goes on nd on nd on.!!!

in cLosing i'd jus Lik to say. stop using the menstruaL cycLe aka the period for excuses. the onLy one it shuLd be used for is "WE CNT HAVE SEX.!" . . . oh nd i cnt go swimming/to the beach.

=) Saucy Mc.Rude =)

Age Aint Nothing But A Number

" Age aint nothing but a number

"Age aint nothing but a number.!" A phrase we've heard time and time again. when i thinak of it i Laugh. Is it me or oLd men, young boys, fast ass girLs, and oLd LoneLy women use that phrase.? Most of the time the ppL from those categories are ugLy or have some kind of obvious fauLt. For example; bad teeth, nappy hair, ugLy face, they are dusty, cant dress, etc. You get where im comin from right.? Have you ever heard a handsome guy with confidence and swag say "Oh you 16.? You know age aint nothing but a number.?" Or a woman with her shit 2gthr and thats in her right mind. N0.! WeLL at Least i havnt. its onLy the ones in the categories i Listed.

AaLiyah made a song abt it & was messin w. R.keLLy. Didnt he catch a court case for messing w. underaged girLs.? Im just sayin.! Then he got hit w. a court case. Pretty Ricky made a song abt it. Then their members showed homosexuaL tendencies(spectacuLar). Hmmm makes you wonder doesn't it.?

PersonaLLy age is more than just a number. You shouLd stick to a certain bracket. If your 50 years oLd don't get a man thats the same age as your 25 year oLd son. If your a man thats 35 dont fuckin prowL on girLs who just got hair on their cho cha's.! Its onLy right.!

The New Fad

Pregnancy is the new fad.?

i must have missed the memo. Like seriousLy everyone is turning up pregnant. wtf is wrong w. these girLs.? why yu wanna go nd do tht now L0Ve.? to keep tht guy.? psshhh. most of the new parents aint even 2gthr.! i h8 goin to babyshowers. heLL i h8 kids. i h8 whiney bitches compLain abt this and tht...shuuut uuup. yu shuLdnt have foLLowed the trend. DUUUh.! LoL its a few exceptions...Lik my gf. but aLL the other bird brains is out here bein singLe parents bkuz they were tryin to keep tht N0 G00D ASS NiGGA. HA.! thts wht the fuck they get. psshhh wen i turn up w a prego ego it 4 damn sure wnt be to trap a LiL boy. i hope by tht time the trend is over.!!!

The DST.

okay this one is a tad bit...expLicit...

i was having a conversation with one of my favorite guys. we were taLkin abt sex. (nothing new) and he was so caLLed "schooLin" me on guys and sex. one area in particuLar. this is funny to me. he teLLs me "if you gonna suck d*** and pLay wit a n****s b***s then be carefuL. s*** them joints are so sensitive." this was jus funny to me. he proceed to say "a girL knows if she can suck on my b***s if she passes the 'd*** suckin test'"

now for those of you who are Like me and never knew what that was i'LL expLain. its the test to see if yur canines aka yur fangs scratch a guys penis wen yu are oraLLy pLeasing him. if yu do N0T then its a go to suck on his b***s.

remember b4 yu decide to suck a man testicLes yu'd better pass tht test. if N0T consequences may occur. such as...

• being punched in the forehead.
• being caLLed out of yur name
• being denied sex
• no return phone caLLs
• he may fuck one of yur friends faces.

so do be carefuL.

FeeLing Lik BLaH.!

have yu ever jus feLt Lik...b La H.!? Lik yur N0T quite happy. yur N0T quite sad. yur jus. . .b La H. LoL thts how i feeL right now. i h8 this feeLin. i dnt know wht to do w. myseLf. im sure most of us hav. yu start to do somethin but haLfway thru yur Lik "this aint even wht i wanna do." shit is crazy man. i wanna be w. someone but then again i dnt. b La H is unsure state. a state of uncertainty. i dnt even know if thts wht i wanted to say but oh weLL no backspacin for this. this is Lik my rawest post right now. LoL. im N0T even reaLLy Laughin.! aint tht craaazy.? i guess so. weLL...im gonna be b La h untiL it fades away.!

A TimeLess Beauty #1

Janet Damit Jo Jackson... What a beauty.! For years

Janet has been a musicaL icon. With hit after hit...

Janet has made a name for herseLf. How can you
deny those Lips and Legs.? She is one of the few
women in the ceLebrity worLd that is stiLL fine
after so many years. beg to differ.?

you say i don`t taLk to you,
and i say i feeL distant frm you
a min. feeLs Like forever ; so imagine this,
missing the way we Love, the way we cuddLe
and most of aLL the way we kiss
tired of waiting, tired of trying
taLking gets me nowhere
esp. w| my thgts && dreams of wantn yu here
"in due time" is who i aLways depend on
restLess i find myseLf trying to stay strong
for this is onLy "temporary"
feeLing more Like its contrary
to us being together
so untiL we meet again i`LL be stuck under this
stinky
gLoomy
weather . . . .
written by: Shanesha T. Menzies.

i Think He Likes Me.!

Technology feels like the only way I can stare her in the eyes without
blushing, the beauty within makes me want her more... The way she
presents herself... I can't help but adore. Her devilish smile, her
sassy attitude, her knowledge within, sometimes I can't comprehend, but
then again, I'll never win. I'll just keep doin the best I can do, 2
express how much she really means 2 me... The love I have 4 u... And if
I were 2 die 2night, or we get into some sort of a fight, I wouldn't
want this 2 go unread, so make sure u read this, right b4 u rest ur
head... God's willin I'll still be alive, I just hope u know, I'll
always be there 4 u, 2 dry ur teary eyes... Through the good and the
bad, stormy weathers and all.. I'll be there 2 catch u when u fall... I
thank God everyday that "u" are in my life, not sure the reason, but
I'll be here with u 4 many seasons... Ok so now I'm gettin tired of
typing so in conclusion, I'll continue 2 be ur "lame" and u will be my
"loser"...
By Matthew

hiLaaaaarious.!

1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses On And Point A
Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down... 
2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice! 
3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, Ask If They Want Fries
With That?


4. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks . Once Everyone Has Gotten
Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch To Espresso.
5. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write ' For Marijuana '.
6. Skip Down The Hall Rather Than Walk, And See How Many Looks You
Get. 
7. Order A Diet Water Whenever You Go Out To Eat, With A Serious Face. 
8. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'.
9. Sing Along At The Opera.
10 Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party
Because YouHave A Headache. 
11 When The Money Comes Out Of The ATM, Scream 'I Won! I Won!' 
12 When Leaving The Zoo, Start Running Towards The Parking Lot,
Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!'
13. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, 'Due To The Economy, We Are Going To
Have To Let One Of You Go.'
14. PICK UP A BOX OF CONDOMS AT THEPHARMACY, GO TO THE COUNTER AND ASK
WHERE THE FITTING ROOM IS.