I Wish

I Wish...

I wish that I would have went straight home like Mama told me. You see, I would have never tripped on that damaged sidewalk & dropped my books. Then looked up to see who had seen my fall & seen you pickin' up my copy of Catcher In The Rye. I would have avoided those capativating smile & those pretty brown eyes that....that drove me insane. Why did you ask my name.?  Oh how I wish.

Oh how I wish that I would have taken my time. But nooo, I was in such a rush to grow up. I miss all my childhood things. The summer nights under the stars playin' tag. Hearin' Daddy yell for me to come inside. Me beggin' & pleadin' for just 20 more minutes since it was the summer & I had no school in the morning. Now I'm wakin' up to make milk bottles for one of my own. I wish I would have listened to mama.

Yeah, I wish I would have listened to Trisha. She always told me them lil' knuckle heads were no good. I thought I knew it all. You know how it goes when you think you got life all figured out. When nobody can tell you nothin'. But she told me. Again & again & again. Again & again & again have I been here with dark shades from black eyes & bruised ribs. I can't afford more kids. I wish....

Dear God, I wish I would have called on you more often than none. I was young and dumb and just tryna have fun. Mama told me but I didn't listen. Daddy tried to protect me but I shunned his shield. Auntie Trisha warned me again & again & again. Again & again & again I ignored her. Now I'm here callin on you to help me. I should have come to you more often than none. Yet I'm not callin' for I but He, my son. Bless him with everything that I didn't have. Obedience, wisdom, faith, and the fear of God. Amen. Oh how I wish I would have listened..........