Crazy

You ever felt yourself slipping away? Like..You feel your bones cracking from the weight of the world on your shoulders. You want to give up because you know you can't take it anymore. You don't want want to hear the lies. Tired of the arguing. Sick of reality itself. As a kid you'd never have fathomed how much stress growing up brought. Relationships with people make everything more exasperating. It's always SOMETHING with SOMEONE. You're too close with this person. Or not close enough with that one. Hanging with certain people start to circulate certain rumors. Ugh. Then you bite your tongue for the sake of peace amongst others. Life at home is  no better. You trust them about as much as you would trust a stranger. As a matter of fact you'd probably trust a stranger more for a stranger would probably judge you less than what your family does. May even sympathize with you. Try to understand you even. Then one day you wake up and you can't take it anymore. You're tired of the lies. The rumors. The back stabbing. The questioning. The emotions. The fake smiles & whispers of people who claim to be your friend. The people who are supposed to be close to you letting people drag your name through the mud and not having enough courtesy to at least say " I'm not trying to hear that ", yet they'll report it to you and not want to say who said what. How can you call yourself a friend if you won't say whose chipping away at your image behind your back? "Bros ain't bros" is a saying that is proven to be true time after time again. Unable to handle the burdens anymore you feel yourself goin crazy. You don't want to but you feel the malice thoughts creeping into your brain from the depths of you. A darl place that you are quite fond of. You left that place long ago and you don't want to go there again. Yet you have no choice. You want everyone who has hurt you to feel what you feel. You want them to hurt. BADLY. You can't stop the tears from cascading down your face and drenching your shirt...It's inevitable you're losin it. What do you do.?

I don't expect anyone to like me. But if you aren't going to like me have a valid reason.

A Random Thought

It kills me that guys be so insecure. Seriously I think they are more insecure than women. They will say they don't care yet they say lil slick shit about situations. If you didn't care you wouldn't say anything stupid. Pisses me all the way off at how they always think someone is always talkin about them. SHUT UP.! You make yourself look so lame and weak. Then you got the ones who call their chick every 10 minutes & text, tweet, aim, facebook, myspace, black planet, send a pigeon in between phone calls. If you have to do all that you shouldn't be with that girl. Duuuuuuh. Lets not forget the guys who get mad when placed in the "friend-zone". What the fuck makes you so special as to be something more than a friend.? Uhhhh please go sit down. I hate to hear guys bitch about males friends. Ummm just because they are friends doesn't mean they are sexin. Once again you make yourself look LAME & WEAK.! This is actually making me mad because I know alot of guys who claim not to care & who yell "fuck bitches. get money", yet the be on social sites with violins and stuff. UBER LAME & ULTRA WEAK. Grow a set.!

You Can't Judge Me

You can't judge me.

I don't see a gown nor gavel

in your possession.

You don't have a fancy name

plate or anything.

You definitely aren't God.

So, what makes you think you

are able to judge me?

You're just as human as I. 

Kirby Maurier

I've been digging this extremely talented up and coming singer signed to ValHolla Entertainment named Kirby Maurier. She's a young lady from Florida (not sure of her city) with such a remarkable voice. I discovered her on www.youtube.com on day in February while looking for covers of Beyonce's song entitled Halo. I came across her video and clicked play. Once Kirby began to sing...I thought "Damn! She gave Beyonce a run for her money on that track" Her vocals so powerful. Crisp and clear notes. I was impressed. So impress I watched all of her videos. Amazing talent. Not to mention she is GORGEOUS.! You can check her out at http://www.youtube.com/user/KirbyMaurier4. Also you can follow her on twitter www.twitter.com/kirbymaurier If you enjoy and appreciate good music you will take my advice and support this young lady. She is definitely hot and I can't wait until her career is well on it's way. Good luck and many blessings to her.

Her single "You" can also be purchased on Itunes. http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/you-radio-edit/id377858545

http://www.youtube.com/redirect?q=http%3A%2F%2Fvalh.us%2Fhalfpastgo&session_token=Ena3BeVmON2b0bR_-RDZuvLdXS98MTI4OTc3MDg2Nw%3D%3D

The Face

That is the face of someone who has been hurt. Someone who has been scarred. Someone who has been betrayed. The face of someone who was lonely. Judged. Misunderstood. That is the face of someone who cries. Someone who gets angry. Someone who fought many a fights. The face of a nerd. Someone who was talked about. A bully. The face of a rebel. That is the face of someone that you didn't know.

That is also the face of someone who laughs. Who smiles. The face of a goofball. A sports lover. Someone who is musically inclined. That is of the face of someone who is intelligent. A hopeless romantic. Someone with a creative mind. A poet. A risk taker. The face of someone you know.

You can't judge a person by their face. Looks can be deceiving.

To Comment Or Not To Comment.?

I really don't understand why alot of people read my blog but you don't comment. You don't even hit the like button. I appreciate the person who disliked my blogs. At least you gave me some type of feed back. It's not that I write for anyone. But I feel that if you're goin to get entertainment from my writings leave a comment. You wouldn't go to a restaurant & not leave a tip for good service. And if you're like my sister if service is bad you wouldn't hesitate to complain. DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T COMMENT. That goes for EVERYONE.!

Back To Bangin

I am bangin' again as of Tuesday.! When I say bangin' I don't mean "Cuhz.! On the set cuhz.!" lol I mean I got my bangs back.! Wooooooooot I missed these ever so irritating bangs.!

It's funny that while I was gettin my hair done and the person doin my hair asked how do you want it. Inside my head I heard "Fatty, don't get no bangs cuuuuz" lol that was beyond funny to me.

It's All I Have

This is never enough.
They always want more from you.
Yet they don't like to reciprocate.
Selfish.
Both men and women.
Ask for more than they give.
One day I will find the one who will accept this.
one day.

People prioritize their friends poorly.